Friday, October 24, 2008

Guest Post: Needle In The Haystack, Chapter 2

Months pass. There was a chance cyber meeting with someone, a man, who read my blog. A wonderful cyber lover friendship quickly ensued. Boundaries were established and agreed to, and just as quickly crossed and forgotten. One night, during a little D/s role play via chat, he instructed me to write a Craig's List Ad to search for the woman I wanted – needed – to satisfy my emotional and sexual needs. He would approve it before I posted it. He would be part of the selection process. His interest in me finding this woman – this needle in a haystack – was selfless. He didn't want a part of the actual intimacies, but rather he wanted the opportunity to help me fulfill my long denied desires. Forty-eight hours later, I posted the following:


Married, bi female looking for the proverbial needle in the haystack. It's been 20 years since I was involved in a physical relationship with another woman and I miss it. I sold my soul to the expectations of society and family – married – had children – live in suburban "bliss". Now, in my mid-forties, I realize that I gave up a piece of myself, a piece that I want back. I won't be leaving my husband and my family, but I will, once again, explore the feminine intimacies I so dearly miss.

I am intelligent, educated, articulate, attractive and femme - height/weight proportionate. My interests are varied. I am just as thrilled to have a discussion surrounding politics or religion as I am talking about the great recipe I just found for a Tomato and Mozzarella Frittata. I am fit and physically active.

You should be emotionally mature and relatively drama free (we all have a bit of drama, don't we?), preferably between 35 and 50. I hope to find a woman in a similar situation, one who understands the importance of discretion in this type of relationship, one who appreciates the attention, the touch, the kiss of a woman. Maybe we start with a few emails, a phone call or coffee, and then see where things go.


Please, no men or couples - I am looking for an exclusive, intimate female friendship. A (tasteful) photo of you will get the same of me in return.



I immediately had posters remorse. What if no one answered the ad? What if someone did? What if somehow my anonymity was compromised? What if one of my children's schoolmates mother answered the ad? Was I crazy?


I was in such a panic that I sent all of the questions, along with a copy of the ad, to the only friend I knew could possibly understand. She assured me that I wasn't crazy (my foremost concern), but had some concerns as well.


She felt I was looking for someone just like me and questioned just how realistic that was. She wondered if I really did want another woman who was in a heterosexual relationship. And if I did, why? What if I fell in love? Was I ready for those consequences? Would I possibly prefer a one-night stand (a much easier and less complicated solution)? Now my head was really spinning.

27 comments:

Nolens Volens said...

Excellent wording...if I was a woman, I would find that alluring.

Jormengrund said...

You know, I think I've been there before, only mine was while I was in college, and not via the internet!

My biggest problem? Trying to understand how a HUGE campus of males and females could produce such wildly different responses!

It boggles the mind, but brings back some seriously poignant memories!

Great job RLL!

Queen-Size funny bone said...

How well and nicely put. I think there are probably more women than everyone thinks looking for the same thing.

Mind of MadMan said...

See more proof that people on Craigs list cannot read.

Dana said...

Being the woman that I am, I *do* find that alluring. I'll be fascinated watching where this goes ...

Knight said...

Those are all valid questions to raise. You have to be careful when posting something so intimate on a community board. It's taking a leap of faith.
Can't wait to hear what happened.

Rage Angel said...

I can't wait to hear what happened next!

Vodka Mom said...

that was well done! And great work keeping us hanging! Ha.

~Jobthingy~ said...

what a great ad.

im loving this

Bond said...

Excellent ad...intriguing story...I know it is real life and not a story...but intriguing for sure.

Oh and can I somehow get the recipe for that tomato/mozzarella frittata?

HEY...I love to cook!

And I am dying to know the rest of this one and yours RLL

Have a wonderful weekend

Scarlet said...

I'm glad I went back to yesterday because for a min. there I thought it was you doing the writing and my head was spinning more than your friend's. (I overlooked the "Guest Post" part and dug into the meat 'n potatoes!)

Like you, she's a great storyteller. I wonder where all this is going...:)

Khadra said...

Ive lurked here a bit, this is my first time commenting. Im loving BOTH stories. Dont stop. Oh and I love the ad.

Ann said...

Wow, interesting...I can't imagine being so conflicted. My heart goes out to this person...

Akelamalu said...

I just can't wait to hear how many replies you got - I bet you were inundated!

Gary Rith Pottery Blog said...

...well maybe she should be all that and maybe (ahem) "disease and drug free" too, as the ads used to say?

Spiky Zora Jones said...

OMG...I am the perfect person you were looking for. If i would only had seen your post.

My god...I never thought of a person you know answering the add. Holy Smokes...

I am so into you right know. I can't wait for the next post. Even though I am distracted with so many other things...like I about broke my ankle...in an ankle brace and in crutches right now.

Yeah sister...you rock.

Ciao babe.

I Smile 2 Much said...

Besides that I luv this storyline too....

I also really luv that the *friend* who helped with the ad had totally unselfish motives. No self seeking on his part. I luv that sooo incredibly much. I luv people like that; makes me truly smile.

Can't wait for more on this ....

Posters remorse I can totally relate to, too.

*smiles*

Sweet Cops Wife said...

I totally understand posters remorse...but ive learned to go with gut instinct...I can't wait for more of this

Passion said...

A wonderful story, you have my attention! Loved the ad. What an amazing friend.

I can't wait to read some more.

Dianne said...

I would have all the same poster remorse and questions but it is so much better to do it and deal with it than to keep wondering and wanting.

I think ...

I want to know more.

bonnie said...

Before I read part one, I thought this was about you and I got so confused. It's a good ad. Maybe she'll find someone through your blog. Internet dating must be a little scary. I've never had to do it but I know it's the only way these days. Every date is a blind date.

bonnie said...

Oh, what is D/s?

bonnie said...

Oh no. What happened. I came back to read more and chapter three is GONE. You must be editing. I'll be back.

Tiggerlane said...

The friend's questions were interesting, b/c often, we enter into these types of relationship, with no real concept of how they might END.

I am excited to read the next installment!

Diva said...

Sometimes knowing what we want is one thing and the act of actually trying to acheive it can cause a flurry of emotion (some good, some bad).

Craze said...

I'm enjoying this story. I can only imagine there are so many "hetero" women out there in the same place. Great ad but also great questions.

Bina said...

That is an excellent ad. She did a great job. If I were bi, I would definitely answer it.