Wednesday, October 7, 2009

What Am I Doing?

Going to tractor pull? What was I thinking? Really? A tractor pull. If I could, I would roll my eyes at myself. Not that there's anything wrong with it. I'm just not a big fan of loud or tractors.

My mother's side of the family is from a VERY small town in a very rural part of TN. They think I'm a City Mouse because I live in the big city of Nashville.

I grew up with these cousins. We went down there every weekend growing up. We'd stay at my grandparent's house. Wake up to a big country breakfast where we had things like fresh sausage and biscuits with my grandmother's fingerprints on them. Then, a late Sunday lunch with my cousin falling asleep on the floor after eating too much chocolate cake.

Football on the TV in the living room, with the men snoring. The women still sitting around the kitchen table talking and picking at the cake. Sipping on a cup of coffee.

So, I'm going down there to visit this weekend. I haven't been since my cousin, Sheila died five years ago. I don't do death very well.

They're having a big tractor pull on my cousin's farm and I promised that I would come. I promised last year, but I had mono. This year, I'll definitely go.

But I kinda don't want to. What I really want is one of the old weekends with everyone eating and laughing. Women crowded in the kitchen with everyone making something different.

And I want my grandparents back.

11 comments:

J.J. in L.A. said...

I would love to have the 2 grandparents I knew (mom's dad and dad's mom) back. They were gone by the time I turned 17 (I'm now 45).

Enjoy your tractor pull! : )

Dragon said...

Gotta love the country life. :-)

Gina said...

I have one of my grandma's jackets (so super cool and actual vintage) and I broke it out the other day when the weather got cold. It made me miss her so much! I want her back too.

Dana said...

See?? This is why I like you! There is nothing like a woman at a tractor pull!

I wish you could have your grandparents back too, and some day you will!

Lynette said...

Maybe it is time for you to help make some new family traditions...you know, like the aunt who makes bisquits from grandma's recipe. I loved the line about her fingerprints being in them. Took me home right off.

Phfrankie Bondo said...

...I hear you loud and clear...and even though "you can't go home again" at least we have the memories, those sweet,sweet memories...

Grant said...

Loud tractors - whooo! Beer will help you appreciate them more.

Bina said...

I have no grandparents left either, and I only knew one. Never had a grandfather that I actually knew.

I don't tractor pulls so much. I'm good for about 10 minutes, then get me out of there! The noise drives me crazy.

Have fun!

Micky-T said...

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Marsha said...

Ah hon, you have to enjoy what life gives rather than becoming bogged down in mourning for what it takes. Go, enjoy your family, and try to find some amusement and fascination with the native activities. You'll appreciate later sometime that no matter how loud and redneck that you were there.

Big hugs.

Lu' said...

Git yerself some purddy girlie ear muffs, not the fuzzy keep yer ears warm kind but the HELL NO I aint goin' deaf at this young age kind. Then git liquored up and have a good ol' time :)