Monday, September 21, 2009

And I Wonder....

How can life be this wonderful? Even if all else fails and I still have a love this wonderful, I will be blissfully happy.

But having this level of happiness is scary.

How long can it last?

How long can it be this wonderful? I'm at three years and counting with the love of my life.

And frankly, it scares the hell out of me.

28 comments:

Mike Golch said...

I wish you 30 + years of that bliss!!

small town dyke said...
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small town dyke said...

I know what you mean, my work life right now is crazy but I have my love at home to make everything ok. wishing you many more.

Fortune Cookies said...

Don't be scared. Just accept each wonderful, blissful, beautiful day as it comes.

Lynette said...

it can keep on going and going and going sorta like the energizer bunny just sit back and enjoy loving that woman as she loves you right back!

mrs. m said...

don't fear it, embrace it.

frankly, i'm jealous, but i'm kinda like you if i get it i will worry myself sick wondering when it will all just disappear.

Jay said...

I agree. Just embrace happiness and revel in it!

phd in yogurtry said...

I agree with the other comments. Embrace this wonderful love you've got. Move toward instead of against, which is what fear promotes.

Karen said...

I agree with you on this one. The times I realize "Things are pretty perfect right now" only mean that a let down is right around the bend.

Perfection is more scary for me than chaos.

Evil Twin's Wife said...

It can go on forever if you both devote dedication and commitment to what you have together. Don't let a day go by without saying, "I love you" or "I appreciate you" at least once.

I have been w/ the Evil Twin for 18 yrs (married for 16) and it still takes my breath away just to look at him. :-)

Melissa said...

It can last forever.

When those moments of fear hit, take a breath and remember you love your love now and she loves you now, and next thing you know it's two years later and you're loving her and she's loving you.

I think that momentary fear can be very helpful - makes us focus on what we have. If you're not mired in fear, it's working for you.

Lu' said...

Hubs and I will be at 25 years next month. It may not always be "wonderful" but it is true and is forever; and mostly "wonderful"

People in the Sun said...

Well, I'll just repeat what my wife said on the Jewish New Year eve: "Here's to the next 5770 years, Planet Earth."

Don't let anything scare you. Like Bill Hicks said, It's just a ride. Enjoy it.

Phfrankie Bondo said...

...ride it like a freight train: relax and marvel at the new view 'round each corner...

CheekyMonkey said...

Hold on for dear life, and don't forget to stretch. You know...for the hurdles to come. We all get them, it's just a matter of time. I need to not be so scared of those hurdles... I'm completely in the same boat as you. Cept I'm at 4 years and I'm not a lesbian. So it's sorta the same boat. More like I'm a paddle boat and you're a canoe. Or something like that.

Marsha said...

I often have similiar worries with my Ron. How often can I pull the wool over the man's eyes, how many years? This year is 9 married, 11 together, and it's still good.

Sometimes love just happens.

Grant said...

Take it from me that you can get sick and suddenly your wonderful life will turn to crap IMMEDIATELY. It could happen to anyone at any time. Unless you take advantage of this one time offer and send me $49.95, or three easy payments of $39.95.

Ashleigh said...

Just enjoy it!

Bond said...

Goodness girl...I do understand...I mean - how the hell, at 53 could I have found the person I have been looking for my whole life...and at 55 joining together with her forever...

As others have said - just enjoy it...don't waste time worrying why it has happened!

Slyde said...

THREE years? i wasnt aware that we knew each other THAT long....

Spiky Zora Jones said...

but it's a wonderful scare, huh honey?

sit back and enjoy the ride sweetie.
xx

Akelamalu said...

Before you know it you'll be celebrating 35 years together like us! :)

Laura said...

relax, enjoy it!

You are very fortuneate!!!

50 years down the road you will be posting about how scared you were!

Gary Rith Pottery Blog said...

OH! :)

Dana said...

This makes me so very happy ... and hopeful!

C said...

fear is a monster preventing us from totally enjoying what we deserve. i too feel it when things seem to be too good to be mine... but ya know what? FUCK THAT! you deserve good things. you deserve this happiness. say it like a mantra until the fear subsides, sistah...
it's just a trick old insecrities are playing on you- dont fall for it.

there're all lying li bastards, those insecurities....

bwah, i spit on them! *

c

Bina said...

And I completely understand what you mean.

Secretia said...

Make it forever. Forever is enough